Thanks to everyone who entered my 6 months to BORN WICKED contest! The winner is the lovely Jenn Rush! Look for another giveaway on September 7–which will include an ARC of my very own!
So, I was going to write a 5 Things on Friday post, all, la, I am going to Truckeroo tonight! Truckeroo is a festival with a bunch of DC food trucks and I am excited. There’s a popsicle truck, and as you may have noticed, I am newly obsessed with popsicles. They have a guac pop that everyone else I know is horrified at the thought of but I really want to try it. Alas, I looked at their menu and they are not featuring the guac pop this week! But they do have a peach mint iced tea one. It shall be mine.
Anyway, the truth is, I’m kind of a bundle of doubt monsters over here. After six months of revising and editing BORN WICKED for my agent and editor, on an increasingly perfectionistic level, it’s very strange to be first-drafting again. I have to force myself to stop screwing around on twitter and turn on Mac Freedom and just try to get some words. Something. I’ve abandoned my 1200 words a day plan until I feel my way into this book.
It makes no sense to measure the finished BW against this little nebulous baby draft. I know that and I am trying not to do it.
There are moments where I’m so in love with my characters and it feels right and I’m very happy. And then there are moments where I think it sucks, and it’s not right, and I’m not quite sure why and it drives me nuts. Should I futz around with it more? Should I move on? How does this writing-on-deadline thing work? Three months to write a new book seems challenging to me. Doable, but challenging, and while I know it will go faster toward the end, I don’t want to spend too much time dillydallying at the beginning.
I’ve never been a fast writer. I’m fairly certain I will never write a book in nine days or three weeks or whatever. I do not pound out 2000 words in an hour. I think the people who can are rockstars, but everyone does it differently. My way is slow and painstaking. Maybe 500 words an hour. Maybe. I tend to read over what I’m writing like thirteen times before I move on. It means that my “first draft” is fairly smooth but slow going. When I cannot shut up my internal editor, sometimes I turn on Write or Die to the kamikaze mode so I can keep moving (if you’re not familiar with it, it will erase your words if you don’t keep writing new ones). When I finish a chapter, I make The Playwright, my brilliant CP, and my best friend read it. At this point I mostly want cheerleading: Yay! I love it! Keep going! although if they feel like something’s veering off in the wrong direction, I want to know that too. (It might make me cry, but I do.) Also, I can listen to music sometimes, but only things that are already well-worn, that I can tune out. Lots of Snow Patrol and Mumford & Sons.
What are you working on right now? How do you draft?